life cycle

Its like they threw me into a box. when i had awoken i was alone. Abandoned: my family gone. It was dark, absolutely nothing except five small air holes that let light in. How did I get here? Where did my family go? I was the youngest, still considered a baby; and yet i was told id only live three years. is this the end? had i died? no, i feel movement as if someone was carrying me. Then as i started to try to get to freedom i see light and am grabbed and placed somewhere. is this supposed to be my new home? Did they bring me here to kill me?maybe its a doctor office or some kind of show room? i run from corner to corner but there is no way out. theirs a blue water bottle half full. very little food so i hide it and save it for later in case they wont give me more. until i get out i am hopeless. i cant fend for myself. i move what looks to be my bedding around into a corner opposite where the water and food are located. i shield myself in the bedding until i finally pass out.

when i woke up everything is pitch black. it must be night. how long did i sleep? it doesn't even seem like the same place id fallen asleep at, and so i'm running and running but it doesn't seem like i'm getting anywhere. so i stop. i start to climb, only to reach a dead end. so i climb down. i found another spot and started to climb, only to find another dead end.i push up on the ceiling and a sliver of light breaks through. i keep trying but there must be something holding it down. am i underground? i hear the door open so i jump down and run to it. they shove there hand in my face and grab something, then slams the door shut. i run around screaming hoping someone will help. i'm also trying to figure out what they took.All this running around is making me tired, i start to drink from the blue water bottle. water seems normal hopefully its not poisoned but its all i have. The door opened and closed before i could even run to it. by time i get there i find a bowl of food i keep screaming "i dont want food i want out" i dont think they can understand me. am i speaking English? am i even in america? i keep pushing up on the crack on the wall seeing its my only hope. i hear sounds probably from a television so somebody has to be there. i cant give up. eventually i curl up in a ball and sleep.

i woke up a sweat. while in my dreams i forget where i am for a minute. i had a memory of being with my family. i wonder if they even know i'm missing, and if they even care. being the youngest in a big family sucks but any where is better then here. i start to climb, banging on the walls trying to get someones attention. Then someone grabbed me, when they set me down i ran. every direction there's a road block. its not a square or round shape either, never seen anything like it. the ground was soft but completely empty of anything besides the road blocks. i'm still running trying to climb over anything i can. that's when they pick me up and put me back in the room i was in. none of this made any sense. what was this sociopath thinking? what are they trying to accomplish? am i in some kind of testing lab? i just keep thinking i'm to young to die. ill die a virgin, all alone. never to have kids. how long do i even have to live? i can hear when whoever is holding me here is around. whenever they are not around is when i sleep because otherwise there is no point in wasting energy if no one can hear me. as soon as they are around again i start banging on the walls and screaming to let me out. i have a feeling i'm not the first one to be in here.

i dont know exactly how long I've been in here for. but clearly longer then three months. i'm starting to gain a lot of weight, getting fat. is that what they want? there's even less room in here now. when i climb i just jump off, cant even make it to the top. maybe if i break something they have to let me out. or i could commit suicide and finally end all this. at least i'm getting a little exercise and that might help me get out. i'm going crazy in here. i haven't even mentioned the worst part; there is no bathroom. so I've been going on the floor opposite where i sleep. once in a great while after everything stinks and there's no room left they will carry me to the small box i was in when they carried me into this place, to clean. I get food and water daily. the longer i'm in here the less i remember about my family. they probably weren't as great as i remember but not having them around is worse. they always say "you never know what you have until its gone" which is so true. it really makes you appreciate what you have. lost in my thoughts they pick me up again. and they start to pet me. i guess i learned my lesson cause i can see everything clearly. the room I've been staying in is my cage. i am a long haired Siberian hamster and the hand is my owner that has been taking care of me and rescued me from my shop. suddenly once i realized what was going on i figured out everything was working out great. once i stopped thinking all the bad thoughts i was able to enjoy what i have.